SADNESS

My Dad has been going downhill very quickly this past week. This morning I got the news that the Doctors consider that he is Terminally Ill with Heart Failure. There is nothing more they can do for him.

He went through the surgery for his broken neck pretty well on June 10th but was very slow to show signs of recovery. He had good days and then days where he was confused and agitated. This week they discovered he has a blood clot in his right arm. There were Cat Scans to ensure there was no stroke (none) and then blood thinners for the clot. Then he took another downturn about a day ago by not absorbing oxygen.

Things have happened too fast for my sister to keep up with the changes and I don't know if he knows of this assessment yet, or even if he's capable of understanding. I'm certain he knows he's extremely sick, and not improving. I will talk with my sister after she gets some rest.

Of course there is no hard and fast timeframe; it could be iminent, 2 days, 2 weeks, but probably not much more than that. He is now a hospice patient and as yet do not know where he will receive this ending care.

I'm sort of trying to deal with this in small doses...bleeding in a little more sorrow and reality a little at a time. Feeling helpless. Praying that his pain and anguish will give way to acceptance and peace. Hoping for the same for his family that loves him.

7/4 -midnight update: A DNR [Do Not Recuscitate] has been issued for him and he has been moved to a Hospice facility in Phoenix. My sister in AZ was with him about 6 hours yesterday and is heading to be with him in his new facility.